Sunday, October 20, 2013

My Ordinary Testimony

This is the Bible I still use today.
I think when talking about faith with other people, they are able to connect best if they find some commonality with the person they are talking to.  I am not that person.

My parents were both believers when I was born.  That means I was raised from birth in the church.  I'm sure I prayed the Prayer when I was tiny, but I don't really remember that.  I do remember being around 10 and sitting in a Sunday school class and thinking "Did I mean it when I prayed?"  I couldn't remember if I meant it or not, so I made sure to mean it that day.

I went to youth group, I went to Christian school from 8th grade on, and I went on to a Bible school for college.  I have never, ever felt the need or desire to experience life outside of walking with the Lord.  I've never smoked, I don't drink (because I really don't like the taste and the cost is too high) and I never felt the need to rebel against the rules my parents had for me.  I had one semi-boyfriend at the end of my high school career, and I say semi because his mom didn't like me or the idea of me or whatever so we never actually dated.  The only relationship I had in college was the one with my husband, and that one came about after two years of solid friendship. We didn't even kiss until after we were engaged, believe it or not.

I've mostly worked for churches and para-church organizations.  I've been involved in either the nursery or the worship team in some form my entire adult life.  I've never had any long absences from church attendance or activity.  I do my best to read my Bible and pray most days, but I don't do it every day.  My parents and my husband's parents and all of our siblings are Christ-followers, so there is relatively little drama in our family life.  I might get into a small spat with one or two of my sisters about once a year, but we're grown-ups and those don't last long.

The problem with this ordinary testimony is that I'm afraid that no one can relate to what I'm saying.  I don't feel like I have baggage.  I don't even have much tragedy in my life.  Even saying that makes me nervous, because I don't want to invite tragedy just for the sake of it, but I don't think it works that way anyway.  I feel like if I tried to talk to anyone, they would just say, "Well, you don't know!  You've never been experienced this!"  And it would be true.  I haven't.  So I can't tell them what it would be like to change from what they are doing to walking with God.  All I can tell them is what it is like to walk with God your whole life.

I don't know if I can do great things with a story like this.  But I can be faithful.  And I guess that's all I have to go on for now.

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31 Days of Ordinary


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